Entries from February 2012

Want List: Jason Wu for Target

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

So, I’m in love with every outfit here… but the middle dress spoke to me the minute I saw it in a picture. Which was, today, while strolling Target (something I haven’t done in a while to teach myself self control). I searched but did not find. I came home, and went online. (that rhymes… take note)
Turns out that pretty little number is no where to be found here. I wonder if my dear friend Nicole might find it in Portland, or I wonder if someone lives in a place where people wouldn’t get excited about this.
Seriously, perfect dress. Fit looks amazing and after reading the reviews I’m just even more upset that I never took the time to know about this.
And as a runner up this little blue sirt is amaaaazingly cute too. But the blue dress above wins. I would love to wear something like the blouse to the right but I’m afraid it would look like I was naked with really hangy skin. Not so great.
I love cats. I would use this to make a table top prettier. CATS!
Truth be told, I knew when I saw the commercial for this line I had a feeling I would really like it. Like REALLY like it… and so it’s probably good I stayed away but SHOOT! I missed out on the perfect dress.
I’m going to go mourn the loss of what never was for a bit…

There’d Be Days Like This

Monday, February 20, 2012

I’ve been giving it a good college go to improve my attitude about, well, everything. I’ve been told I can be extremely negative and I’ve noticed it myself a great many times. I’ve been working hard over the past half year or more to change my outlook on life and myself. Most days I really understand and appreciate the bits I take away from the self help books I read and the projects I sign up for. But other days, like Saturday, there is just a cloud that refuses to break down easy.
Saturday the doubts that I had pushed down, the frustration that I’d tried to ease in my mind all came together into a dark cloud above my head. There was just no kicking it for the better part of the day. I even went and hung out with friends which admittedly, did ease some of the frustration, but not all of it. I feel really challenged when moods like that come along. I get this feeling that I need out of my skin, that nothing sounds okay and everything is going wrong. I feel like screaming, cussing and complaining about anything and everything and my humor gets really dark. 
While my sarcastic comments sometimes make people laugh it is not a pleasant place for me to be. And I try to stay away from friend and family during these darker times but sometimes being around them is what I need to get out of it.
So this time I compromised. I called a few friends, b and m-ed (excuse the french here, bitched and moaned) to one using harsh language which felt pretty good. Some of my pent up energy was released. During that time a different friend called and left a funny message and I was able to meet up with him and one of his friends at a coffee shop I hadn’t been to in a while. After that the cloud eased a bit more.
I was still in a very subdued mood when we went to the beach later and met up with other friends but I took the time to enjoy the sound of the ocean and study a bit on the beach. I thought about how so few people get to study on the beach and it made me feel just a little bit more grateful for something in my day. The studying also helped me realize that this thing I have been dreading and putting off (studying for a big test to get my teaching credential, well, the opportunity to take classes to THEN get my TC) won’t be AS BAD as I thought it was going to be.
I kept forgetting as I thought about the magnitude of this test, that the information I am going to be learning is stuff that I find interesting and useful. A lot of it is review from years and years of English classes. While 5 hours taking a test (during which I am to write 2 long and 4 short answer essays) is definitely going to melt my mind, it won’t be as impossible as I’ve made it out to be. 
With that another little weight lifted. I still wasn’t super friendly feeling at that point (and the wet sand had soaked through my towel and made the seat of my jeans wet) so I left the boys to come in from the surf without their groupie and went home to take some time to chill and get warm. 
I get home, one of my friends calls to ask if I want to meet for dinner later, he says it will be about an hour maybe a tad more which then gives me the perfect window of time to work out and then meet up with him. The invitation and work out session broke the rest of the cloud left and finally I was free to be happy again.
After dinner I went home to get changed to get ready to go out and I had SUCH a good time. Oh goodness, two margaritas in (short glass margaritas) and we were all laughing and having a great time. I’m so glad that my earlier thoughts of staying home alone weren’t acted upon. 
So tonight, after processing the week I realized that I had been more productive than I thought. I made a list to prove it!
Things I’ve Completed:
– Finished my 3 college applications online (USF, NAU and CSUSM if you are wondering)
– Finished 3 books (Start Something That Matters, Sweet Valley Confidential and An Abundance of Katherines)
– Filed my taxes
– Completed the 2012-2013 FAFSA
– put Netflix account on hold until May ($8 a month I am not doing anything with, so we’ll wait until money is more stable and there’s more I want to watch)
– went to an awesome book club meet up!
– progressed in my dance classes, not as much as I wanted to, but progress none the less
I might end up doing these lists more often… I might not post them all the time but they will be a great reminder when the months fly by to see what I have done. 
Do you have times where you think nothing has been accomplished but when you really take a look back you realize you’ve done quite a bit?
To those who are incredibly positive, take action people: do you still have days where everything feels off and you just want to complain about something? Or does the need for that kind of release of mental energy fade after a lot of practice?


Happily Wasted

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Isn’t this little girl just a doll of a kitty? I mean really… (if you answer anything but yes keep it to yourself, she’s my fav!)
These last few weeks have been filled with things I can’t even remember so I’ll just leave you with the links. And thinking about how soft Saki (Sake?) is. We’ve had her for years and still I don’t get the spelling right. 🙂

I’ve been there
Frivolous shopping when depressed, definitely done that.
A new favorite… a man of class
My next “day in ____” project
This beautiful drawing
More helpful photo tips from Elsie
The Camera… gorgeous
A brave photoshoot
I need to get better at using my iphone camera!
That’s why her hair’s so big, it’s full of secrets.
Oh I love, love, love crepes… these look divine!
Hopelessly in love with triangle art
This gorgeous post of pictures, Hula Seventy, your photography never disappoints!
A great looking trunk!
Two new things to try with my hair! one, two.
March Photo a Day challenge


Between the Lines: An Abundance of Katherines

Saturday, February 18, 2012

I’m going to start with “I loved it.” I mean, I read it in one night. I stopped maybe one quarter of the way through to nap but then after spending a little chat time with my mom and brother while simultaneously searching the fridge and pantry for something to eat (no success) I went back to the book and read it to the end.
I often question my own review of books. I find myself reading things that are sometimes formulaic, think Nicholas Sparks, or cliché, but I love, love, love them none the less. I use to worry that liking these made me seem less smart, and to some it might, but I think of them as breaks from the work my brain does on a daily basis. (Most work it did use to consist of worrying, now it’s worrying and wondering if I’m good enough at just about anything.) 
But this isn’t about me, it’s about the book. And I liked it. I liked it a great deal. I would recommend it to those who enjoy YA lit. 
I’m not going to go into telling you why, if you want to read it or want to know about it’s about just hop on over to amazon (it has 4 stars out of 5 there) and read what they other say.
I’m going to leave you with my favorite part in the book though… here it goes:

“She ran off. It was not the way Curve smelled that Colin liked – not exactly. It was the way the air smelled just as Lindsey began to jog away from him. The smell the perfume left behind. There’s not a word for that in English, but Colin knew the French word: sillage. What Colin liked about Curve was not its smell on the skin but its sillage, the fruity sweet smell of its leaving.”

I mean, it’s so cute and nerdy at the same time. And I love perfume… not Curve, and generally not super fruity smelling perfume, but perfume in general. It brings up such strong feelings. Do I have a sensitive nose? Maybe. But certain smells make me so giddy even just for a second, and later they might relax me.
Anyway, I really connected to that part and so I wanted to share.

It’s been a while since I’ve done a Between the Lines. I miss them.

Maybe they will be more frequent in the future. I’ve just been reading a lot of self-help/business books that there isn’t just one part that I can take out from the whole.

Anywho, happy reading!


Valentine’s Pins

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

So here it is, not just one cutesy, happy Valentine’s Day post but TWO!!! I guess once I started getting into the happy, excited feel I just couldn’t stop! These are some of my favorite love pins.

Seriously, I might go for that last line if a guy came up to me at a bar and said it. No shame? Ugh. Sorry. But I mean, I love books. And libraries… He’d definitely have to be a little older though…


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