Entries from October 2011

Happily Wasted

Sunday, October 30, 2011



Movies/Shows Watched– 
The Walking Dead- Episode 2 of Season 2
Pretty Little Liars Halloween Episode
Ides of March (so heated after this movie)
Started Season 6 of Bones

Listening to
A Loss For Words
Taylor Swift





Read (or currently reading)
The Artist’s Way

Catch-22
This is Not the Story You Think It Is


Favorite Posts/Articles
Love love love this fort made for a precious little girl.
Dani wrote a lovely letter to herself at 15… things to still remember at 25 and on
During my trip to San Diego I was able to revert my sleep time back a bit, now after reading this article I’m even more motivated to start a morning routine!
Sydney is one of those women who just always looks gorgeous, even after days of contractions. I’m thinking good thoughts for her and her baby!
I look forward to posts on I Just Might Explode and this one is no exception. 
Ashes are just a necessary end to fire.














xoxo

The Artist’s Way: Week 2

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Before I get started on my summary of Week 2, I’ll do a little recap of the goals  and tools of this project. 
Goals of 12 week program: 
1. Learn to be gentle and positive with and about myself
2. Start habit of morning pages that will carry on for life
3. Break down the liver’s (like to live, not liver like thing my generation abuses) block
Tools:
Morning Pages:
Three hand written, pages about anything and everything. You can whine about how life is unfair or about how blocked you are or about how the wall is white. You could write the same word over and over until something comes up, you could start a story, but the point is to get pen to paper and have words come out. Any words. This is about quantity and repetition, not quality.
Artists Dates:
Artists dates is a time you spend with yourself, not with anybody else, and you explore something. It could be walking around an exhibit, going to a new restaurant, taking a long walk or hike, jumping rope for 20+ minutes, seeing a movie you’ve been wanting to see, browsing a record store… anything.
But they have to be by yourself and they have to be enjoyable to you. 
Have you been doing these things in your life already?
Week Two: Recovering a Sense of Identity

In week two the lessons are about finding who you are and what you are interested in. It’s about letting go of what you THINK you are and like and letting the real thing come through. Sometimes the interests will be the same, sometimes you’ll find you are interested in a completely different craft.
My favorite quotation:

…the truth of a life really has little to do with its quality. The quality of  life is in proportion, always, to the capacity for delight. The capacity for delight is the gift of paying attention.

I’ve been experiencing this a lot lately. Maybe reading this chapter before different parts of my life starting going south all at once was helpful in a subconscious way. I will never fully know. All I know is that there have been some interesting things going on and I still have a smile on my face more times than not. I’m not anxious or sad, I’m just sitting here knowing somehow that things are going to work out. I’ve never been like this, so that’s something.
Favorite Task:
List 5 imaginary lives you would lead if you could do so. Think of things you could do to put a tiny part of those lives into your reality.
1. Professional Traveler
2. Baker: Think Maggie Gyllenhaal in Stranger than Fiction
3. Fiction Writer
4. College Professor
5. Photographer – focus on art 
While it was an easy move, I definitely took photos, with my Holga, during week 2 and went and had a contact sheet made and then picked which ones I wanted to print. Awesome experience. I don’t think I want to shoot with 35mm as much as I want to shoot with 120. 
Check In:
1. Morning pages: again 5/7
Again making enough time for the pages in the morning was a problem but I did like writing at night sometimes instead.
2. Artist Date:
Once again I took myself on a Sushi date and this time ordered some different rolls and pieces. I wrote again and enjoyed the time I had before going to class. 
3. Issues with the week: 
Must learn to balance work through out the week! So into it at the beginning of the week and then after Wednesday it’s all of a sudden Sunday and I haven’t done anything but the Morning Pages. I do think about the project every single day but I don’t devote enough time to it yet.
Thoughts on week 2: Still in love with this book and this process though I do feel like I am slacking. I am actually writing this during Week 4 and I’ve decided to give myself a 2nd go at Week 4 to actually get something out of it and get on track. That will also make it easier to get caught up here. But that’s just a bonus.
What projects have you been working on lately?
xoxo

Happily Wasted

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

This past week was all about getting things situated in my head. Tightening screws that have been loosened with time and little maintenance. Things fall apart when you don’t. I’ve learned this over and over again recently. But everything is good and well, making progress in many ways. Didn’t spend as much time with the different mass mediums this time around but I have been enjoying myself fully.
This week has been about getting everything figured out AND visiting friend and family in San Diego. Much needed hang outs being had.
Movies/Shows Watched– 
Bones – Finished up all netflicks instant watch episodes
The Walking Dead- Episode 1 of Season 2
The New Girl- Episode 3

Listening to
Taylor Swift

Read (or currently reading)
The Artist’s Way

Linchpin (Finished)

Teacher Man (Finished)

Favorite Posts/Articles
This week I was quite behind on my blog reading, check back on this next week!

xoxo

Path vs Destination

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

The Artist’s Way: Introduction and Week 1

Monday, October 17, 2011

Recently I’ve taken on yet another project. This one is meant to help me with all current and future projects. I was inspired by Erika at A Tiny Rocket when she said she was going to do a blog-a-long (my word, now given freely to the world… you’re welcome*).
I have signed on to working through The Artist’s Way for the whole 12 week program. I will be honest and say I started this a while back, which may have been obvious from my Happily Wasted posts… but I will be posting the week updates here with little notes about how I felt about each week.
Before I start with Week One I’m going to introduce some tools (as Julia calls them) that are a big part of these 3 months…
Morning Pages:
3, hand written, pages about anything and everything. You can whine about how life is unfair or about how blocked you are or about how the wall is white. You could write the same word over and over until something comes up, you could start a story, but the point is to get pen to paper and have words come out. Any words. This is about quantity and repetition, not quality.
Artists Dates:
Artists dates is a time you spend with yourself, not with anybody else, and you explore something. It could be walking around an exhibit, going to a new restaurant, taking a long walk or hike, jumping rope for 20+ minutes, seeing a movie you’ve been wanting to see, browsing a record store… anything.
But they have to be by yourself and they have to be enjoyable to you. 
Now, without further ado, I give you week one!
Week One: Recovering a Sense of Safety

In week one the lessons are centered around finding a safe place for the part of you that likes to create. It’s about treating yourself well and very nicely. It’s about finding the source of negative thoughts and banishing them. It was also about creating affirmations. Something I have definitely struggled with in the  past.
My favorite quotation:
You are not dumb, crazy, egomaniacal, grandiose, or silly just because you falsely believe yourself to be.
I highlighted this sentence in remembrance of the things I use to tell myself, about myself, in high school and the beginning (and possibly) end years of college. I was always sure that I was crazy and I needed to keep my depression in check so they wouldn’t lock me up. I didn’t want to see psychiatrists because I didn’t want to know what they had to say. I wanted to be able to work through everything without them and/or drugs. 
I also thought I was incredibly dumb for a long, long time. It didn’t matter what my grades were (mostly A’s and then some B’s in later high school years and through college as I started to let go a little bit) or how fast I could catch on to new concepts or how I connected things. It didn’t matter how many of my teachers applauded my efforts, it didn’t matter. I still felt like there was something about me that was dumb.
I don’t know when it changed by sometime in the last few years I have moved away from both of these things. I’ve let myself have room to be me, I’ve given myself the okay to go see a counselor, I’ve given myself room to breathe. I’ve been able to understand (sometimes, most times) why people keep me in their lives and even fight for me to stay around when I’m being horrid. I’m starting to allow myself positive thoughts about what I do and who I am. 
Being here now I can’t even fully remember the feelings of those times. That’s a huge relief and I think something I need to remember on the hard days. There has been progress, there will be more progress and one day, things will get really good, just be kind to yourself.
Favorite Task:
Listing 3 champions of your creative self worth.
This assignment said to look back in life and find those who really stood behind you no matter what. Who have your back through thick and thin and know how to be constructive with their input.
Unicorn Sparkle(bottom)s
Chelsea Lee
&
Beth Elisa Harris 
These women (look at that, they are all women) each have their own way of really helping me out when I need it. Yes there are more people that fit the bill of my champions but they only asked for three this time. 🙂
At the end of every week there is a check in:
1. Morning pages: I did 5/7
I love the morning pages, though I don’t always love the “morning” part of them. I’m really wondering what effects would come of doing night pages before bed instead. Or maybe I’ll do the longer pages at night and one morning page when I wake up to start things going. Not sure yet, working on this week by week. Just don’t wake up early enough to get them in and then get ready to go places.
2. Artist Date:
I took myself to sushi and wrote my Morning Afternoon Pages there before heading off to my first Holga Camera class! I took some time to pet a kitty that was walking around by the parking lot and then told the two little girls that came up to take over my job of petting her because I had to go. They brought her some food as well.
3. Issues with the week: 
Like I said before, morning part of morning pages is hard, writing 3 pages by hand every day about anything is not. Will have to figure this all out as the weeks go on.
Other issue was working on the weekly tasks for hours some days and not at all others. Need to find some balance!
So far I love this. I am having some issues with the whole “God” aspect. With a capital G and such. I’m a spiritual person but I’m more of a Mother Earth type then a God type. Cameron addresses this and so I’m doing my best not to put up mind blocks when I read certain things.
I have yet to decide if my creativity is really unlocking but I do feel myself working on different projects. In fact, I did put together two different polaroid collages, of my own polaroids and made the time to buy some frames for artwork I’ve bought over the years.
I guess I’ll just see how everything goes week to week…
Have you ever worked on The Artist’s Way?
xoxo
*pretty sure someone has used the word already… just felt special for a second

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